Sometimes I just feel so lonely, even though I’m sorrounded by friends and family. In the middle of a conversation - or even a laugh, I find mysel being interouptet by this emotion. I feel a overwelming sadness, my stomache hurts, and for some minuttes I swear it feels like I’m suffering from a mix of a huge loss, grief or longing for someone, or something. Ever since I was little I’ve struggled explaining how it feels like. I’ve always thought that if I went home to see my mom, went to my boyfriend’s house or maby or met my best friends it would disapear. But it doesn’t.
As I have grown older I’ve found the closest I can call an explanation. I feel homesick for something, or someone, I don’t even know excist. I don’t think I will ever understand what, or why, or who. Maybe I just need to learn to live with it.